That was the loud banging of my head against the ground as I fell off the wagon of eating right again. Let's recap a bit. Friday the 4th I decided I would take a meal off and eat what I wanted. I didn't do too bad. Had some tortilla chips, pork chops w/rice and beans and some flour tortillas at a Mexican restaurant. Since I mainly avoid carbs and not fat/calories, I really didn't do terribly. The rice and tortilla/tortilla chips were high in carbs but not like a big loaf of bread or a desert. It gets worse. We didn't go to Lexington for Crystal's birthday on the 5th. Instead, we ended up at Taco Bell since the nice places were too packed to eat at. Crystal had to work til 3 that day, so we stayed around our town. I ended up eating a burrito and a taco salad. Once again, besides the tortilla shell and flour tortilla it wasn't disasterous. Then we went to the store and picked up a few things. These things included a birthday cake for Crystal which I had a big piece of and some boneless wings that I ate with Hawaiian bread at about 11pm. Bad day for me is an understatement. Then on Sunday we went for a afternoon getaway north of us to a shopping center. This is where I consumed a mushroom cheeseburger (with bun), few fries, few fried cheese bites, few onion rings and a frozen custard waffle cone. For dinner was 10 White Castles with fries and fried cheese sticks. Monday was equally crappy. Didn't eat any bad items while at work. Then took my son to burger place while waiting for my daughter to get out of volleyball tryouts (we'll cover that next). I ate a salad w/grilled chicken. That was awesome...then I ate the rest of Austin's fries and proceeded to finish off the White Castle's when we got home. Today I was set on getting back on track...I didn't. This was the worst day of a horrendous 4 day eating frenzy. I had a sensible 2 eggs for breakfast. Followed it with a cheeseburger and fried chicken sandwich from the cafe at work for lunch, kettle corn at our meeting, pizza for dinner, 7 pieces of hazelnut chocolate candy, snack pack of malted milk balls and a turkey sandwich made with a bagel for late night binge. I am so mad at being such a food addict. I have lost a good amount of weight and let a 2 week period of not seeing a loss move me to "reboot my system" which is a horse crap way of the old glutton in me to go on a eating extravaganza. So here I am, feeling like crap, depressed, mad and ashamed. I let food control me instead of letting the positivity of being almost 30 pounds lighter keep me on track. Tomorrow is a new day and I will be back on track 100%!!!!!
Let me end this on a upbeat note. Chloe is still doing great and not eating like an idiot (unlike her dad). All this week she is attending volleyball team tryouts for her middle school's 6th grade team. So far she says it is going great. The 10 pounds she has lost is making things better for her i'm sure. Hopefully she makes the team and being a part of a sports team will keep her focused on fitness.
Goodnight all. I will have a better update next time. One that will tell about how I am back on track with my weight loss adventure!
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