No leftovers today

After a bowl of oatmeal and a banana for breakfast, lunch couldn't come soon enough. Chicken breast with hot sauce, for a mayo free chicken salad, and veggies. Big difference from yesterday, but feel MUCH better after eating this!

FRIDAY!

TGIF! No Black Friday shopping for me this morning, just work. I got a good nights sleep and woke up with a pep in my step. Obviously I decided to keep my adventure blog and move forward with my weight loss journey tracking. Today I weighed 409.4 pounds on the trusty work scales. I refuse to go any higher. I came prepared with healthy foods for work and will update my food choices tonight. For now though, it's back to work time since break is over...come on 4:30!

Happy Thanksgiving!

Hopefully everyone has had a great Thanksgiving full of reflections of what you are thankful for. I ate too much, as many people did today. As blessed as I am and as great as today has been, I feel like crap. As of this past Tuesday I weighted 408 pounds. I am in a tailspin and quite possibly have crashed after my 2nd bowl of dumplings today. My daughter has also bore the brunt of the scale and poor eating habits as she hit a milestone of high weight herself this week. It is sad for me to realize that food has such a power over the common sense of eating right. Alas, I sit here and plan my 30th Daddy/Daughter weight loss contest to begin Monday. I am completely embarrassed at how I can lose 50 pounds in less than half a year and gain 55 back just as quick. I am also completely peeved that I could allow my daughter to lose 20 pounds in the same time frame only to gain about 30 back.

I won't waste anymore of a happy Thanksgiving being down on myself. The future of this blog is up in the air right now. Possibly I will start a new and fresh start blog this weekend, or I may just get past the crappy things I've done and get back on track and blog by eating recovery on here. Either way I'll be back on track tomorrow. As long as I keep getting back on my feet, I have not been defeated...no matter how many times I get off track. Goodnight.

What it is, what it was and what it will be

It is all good now. Since last update, I have dealt with my mom having a stroke (she is doing well now), minor health scare for myself and still awaiting word on when my job will be closing. I am still going to school full time via online courses and also working full time. As busy as I have been, I have managed to find time to eat enough to gain EVERY single pound back that I had lost. As of last Tuesday I was about 403 pounds...even though my doctor's scale only showed 370. Hopefully his diagnosis are more accurate than his scale.

As my first sentence stated, it's all good now though. I know what to do, just have to get back to doing it. I have stocked the house with fruits and veggies that I like. The "bad" food has either been consumed or thrown out. As of tomorrow I am back to taking plenty of healthy grub to work and have lighter options waiting to be made for dinner. Water will be replacing diet soda as my drink of choice...I have my headache pills ready for the caffeine withdraw headaches that will come. If I can only find the motivation to stay after work and use the company gym I will be all set.

I was going to start a new blog, but I got to thinking about it and decided not to. This weight loss thing is an adventure and not just a quick thing for me. This blog shows my successes and also my bumps along the way. For every day, week or months I went without posting is a reminder of my adventure being derailed and hopefully will help remind me of what not to do.

So I begin my journey to lose weight again and of course it is right at the eating portion of the holiday season. That will just be a badge of motivation when I overcome the "bad" food and backhand the second helpings away. I am back to basics. Small portions, limited processed foods, more veggies and fruits, lots of water and getting active. No junk, candy or fried stuff, but also no healthy foods that I can't stand and no depriving myself of anything. If I want it, I'll eat it. I just won't eat four times the recommended serving size. Gonna take things one meal at a time and my goal is to take it 10 pounds at a time. The first big goal is getting to 349, than it will be to weigh 299 and at 250 I will see what needs to be done. As discouraged as I am that I am back at needing to lose 150+ pounds, I am just as eager and excited to get back on track. I lost 50 pounds in about 5 months at the beginning of the year. This time I hope to lose 60 pounds by April 1, 2012 (yes, April fools day) which would be just about 4 1/2 months.

Wish me well friends, and pray I don't let myself and my family down. More posting to come this week.