failed

yeah, all the copouts in my last few posts have gave it away. I went off my healthy eating July 9th and pretty much haven't looked back. Its true it could have been worse...but it hasn't been good. I'm gonna take a step back and figure out what the hell is wrong with me that keeps me failing. I'll be back soon to restart my adventure.

Hi. How you doing...

I have not posted and I have not weighed. For every good low calorie sensible meal I consume, There is one...or two meals that are not. One thing I am proud of is my portion size. Now it is one sandwich or burger and small fry or side salad, not two or three and biggie sized. In fact, eating out is not done near as much. My clothes still fit about the same, so I would assume my weight loss is still between 12-15 pounds total. I know this will not get me to my goal. I know I am better than just treading water. The truth is with Crystal's lower pay at work, her starting college for the first time, the kids' school supply shopping I just haven't had the extra cash needed to pay the premium prices on healthier choices at the store. My exercise has slowed due to the 90+ degree weather and my asthma issues. In short, my weight loss adventure is more of a predictable Sunday drive of maintaining what little I have lost and fight to not gain anymore back. September should free up more funds for good foods and cooler evenings for walks. Until then, I'll keep up the good fight and gradually work towards getting back to the motivation and success I had this time last month.

Remember me...

Well I have not been on here since the 13th and have seen better days. The weight loss journey has been rough. From 7/9 thru pretty much the 19th I did not watch what I ate at all. At this past Tuesday's weigh in I was shocked I was only up about 6 pounds. So I am at a 14 pound loss. Not setting any records, but I am happy with it. If I was on some fad diet, I would've gained 20 pounds during that time off. I am still not back strict, but I'm not eating stupid either. The biggest loser contest at work ended for me by fractions of a percent. Oh well, my journey continues. I go for a job interview at walmart tomorrow for a part-time gig to help with extra money. If hired, the extra hours moving around should help with the weight loss thing. Well, I have more to write but will have to do it later as I got a lot to do before bed. I'll try not to go so far between posts. FYI...my weight as of Tuesday is 383 (better than 397).

Detour...

Since I have last wrote, the adventure has stopped for a break. I intended on a one day break for my birthday on July 9th and have yet to get back to eating right. The family and I are heading camping tomorrow through Sunday, so maybe with being out and active that will help get me back on track. Then again, there will be hot dogs, smores and sandwiches for the meals along with cookies and chips. I will be watching my portions so that will make it a little better. I feel like crap compared to where I was at. I know I have gained weight since Thursday, but I also know it's not the end of the world. I have quit throwing in the towel when I do bad. I may have to wait for Monday to get 100% back on track since I will not be around a stove to make my healthy meals...and I'm ok with that. I will be fine and this weight will get lost. One week of crappy food will not derail me permanently. It's nice to be able to say that. There was a time when I would have just never logged back into this blog, turned my back completely to weight loss and gained 40 pounds. Now, I know I will weigh probably 12 pounds more next Tuesday at weigh in...but that's ok, I will still be down weight since I started and I know I can lose any weight gained this week. Well, off to prepare for the camping trip. Lots to plan and pack.

Last day of work before vacation...

Ate what I wanted today. M&M's, orange chicken and white rice...you get the picture. Gonna cookout for my birthday tomorrow. Bratwurst and burgers and maybe some chips and baked beans. I shouldn't use my B-day as an excuse, but I have been good for over a month and 4 meals won't get me back into old habits (I promise).

Weigh in day...

I lost 6/10ths of a pound this week. Not bad considering I had to weigh in jeans, not shorts and just came off of a long holiday weekend. I am going to ease up on my bread and less fruits. Even though I am not doing low carb, I feel the slow pace of weight loss is due to too many extra carbs that aren't needed. I may look back in a month and think this was stupid, but right now it makes sense to me to do. I don't have anything else to write. Well, g'night.

End of a long weekend...

and the short week begins tomorrow! I work Tuesday - Thursday and then I am off until 7/20! Today I went to the lake with the family for a couple hours. We then grabbed left over cookout foods from mom's house. Total calories for today were about 1800. Mom called me from the hotel her and my sister are staying at. She was just relaxing and enjoying getting out of SE KY. I didn't do much walking today or water drinking. My weigh in is tomorrow. I am just hoping for a loss of any number. The whole eating a good size meal late the night before a weigh in is not good for me. Oh well, I feel better regardless of the scale. I got an early morning so off to bed I go.