NOVEMBER 2ND

Can I just start new...again? No need to rehash the same crap. So here is a quick recap to bring you up to speed.

I got motivated to lose weight.
I stayed motivated and lost good amount of weight.
I took my Birthday in July off to eat what I want.
I stayed off the healthy eating/living for over 2 months instead of just 1 day.
I gained all the weight back.
I got desire to lose weight again.
Actually 3 times or more since.
Each attempt lasted only one day each.

So, here I am again. I have decided next August I want to go to school to work on becoming a nurse. One major hiccup is the fact I weigh 397-400 lbs right now. Obviously, I can't be this huge and unhealthy and be able to help others or even stay on my feet at a hospital for 12-16 hours a day. So besides my chest hurting, high risks of diabetes/heart disease/high blood pressure and cancer, odds of dying within next ten years, social prejudices against us fatties, my own insecurities and low self esteem, marital/parenting issues that my weight causes and the hundred other negatives...I can add inability to change careers if I stay morbidly obese.

I toyed with the idea of going to a low carb diet again. My experience with that though is gaining weight back superquick even if just one or two meals have bread/carbs. Yes I know you should never go off of it, but human nature is that I will eat bread or pasta and I shouldn't gain a weeks worth weight loss after just 2 meals. So not doing that again. It is a quick way to lose weight and I know it is the answer to many, but not totally for me.

I considered weight watchers so that me and Chloe can have meetings and structure to help. The only drawbacks are keeping track of points I eat and getting to a meeting. Then add to that a weekly fee on a tight paycheck to paycheck budget. So not it.

Slim fast or another shake diet was thought of. Then I realized I couldn't stay on it since I like food. nixed that one quick.

So, here I am wondering what approach to take. Didn't take long to realize what I had to do. Common sense healthy eating just like how I started this months ago. No rules, just smaller portions, less bread and sugars, less diet sodas and more veggies and fruits. No fried or fatty crap either.

Going to weigh in the morning at work. Going to walk on breaks.

Here we go again, wish me luck!