Passed on fattening breakfast at McD's Ate a balanced, low fat/calorie lunch at work. Then, all hell broke loose. Long John Silver's fish tacos and fries followed by a choco taco and ice cream sandwich. I get so damn mad at myself for going back to old ways. Mentally I am ready to lose weight and strong enough to do it. I do not understand the self sabotage that is going on internally. All I can do is start again tomorrow...I hate that I have said that 4 days in a row. I can't sit and wallow in defeat over a bad dinner. If I do, I will end up saying screw it and fall off the wagon. I can't fall off the wagon, this is my life we are talking about. I'm not losing weight for better clothing or some event, I am trying to avoid a massive heart attack or diabetes. Tomorrow I am putting a metaphoric boot up my ass and kicking back into gear. Tonight I am going to read some sections of Jennette Fulda's Half-Assed book to reintroduce some things to my subconscious.
Total estimated calories for today 3000 (feel like crap about this!)
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