Day 10

Was tempted by a few people to eat crap food today. Was criticized a bit for not eating flour or sugar. Misery loves company I suppose. My biggest loser buddies talk about food all day long. They lust over recipes and reflections of meals past like they are talking about a lover. Today our work team discussed what pizza they want at our meeting next week. When they asked what I like, I politely advised them I would not be eating any. That's when everyone was saying stuff like "you can eat a piece" or "thin crust is okay". So to shut everyone up, I advised them I didn't eat flour and sugar. Of course there were the "I couldn't go without bread" and the "I'm not going to deprive myself of foods". I told them that I eat lean meat, veggies, fruits and soups. Heck, I'd be fine eating a whole grain bread or pita if I wanted it because it's not just nutritionally useless white flour. The key word is WANT. I do not want crap. I have broke addiction to Italian bread loaves, muffins, bagels, doughnuts, cookies and all the other crap that I was addicted to that was slowly killing me. I do not want to eat double and triple portion sizes. I do not want to snack just out of boredom. I want to be a healthy and at a size closer to what God intended me to be. I want to have the health to run and play with my kids. I want to fit in amusement park rides with my family. I want to buy my clothes from regular stores and in the mens sections, not big and tall section. I want to sit at a booth without my belly divided in half by the table. I want to feel confidence in my looks. I want...much more than food.

Okay, that's what was on my mind. Now I'll wind this thing down.

Two eggs for breakfast, can of chicken and green beans for lunch, couple spoons of cheese ball and a pack of tuna for dinner. Total calories were around 600. Too low I know, but I am tired and too late to eat.

g'night