Day 6 and 7

I got carried away and forgot to post yesterday, so I will make this a double header.

day 6...
Saturday we fell under the first winter weather advisory of the year. Of course we didn't get anything more than a dusting of snow that turned to just a foggy cold day. About 2:30 we took Chloe to a friends birthday party. Me and Crystal thought we'd just take Austin to McD's to have a happy meal and play a little while Chloe was partying it up. So I indulged in a large and delicious...diet soda. Watching them eat wasn't hard at all. If anything it was just the habit of wanting to grab one of Austin's fries and smell of the food that even remotely tempted me. No, I am in a zone. A zone I will have to stay in for the rest of my life if I am to lose the weight, change my mentality on food and add years to my life. Nothing much else to speak of. Went to a few stores to waste time, got Chloe and headed home.

Now for a recap on Saturdays foods/calories. Breakfast was 2 scrambled eggs and 2 strips of turkey bacon. Lunch was 2 servings of baked round steak with sauted onions and mushrooms in worcestershire sauce. Yep, 2 servings. I pigged out, but I'm fine with that. They were trimmed of all fat and baked in oven. I also had a salad on the side instead of some starchy item. For dinner I had another serving of round steak and another salad. Also had a good portion of the lowfat cheeseball I made. Total calories were about 1800. More than usual, but right in line with recommended calories for my size.

Day 7
Today was a decent day. Weatherwise it was dreary with spitting flurries and cold temps. Inside was cozy. I made us scrambled eggs with mushrooms along with turkey bacon. I always make the turkey bacon on paper towels in the microwave. That soaks up what little fat is in each strip. For lunch I fixed turkey burgers and a side salad. I made one mega patty stuffed with a serving of cheese. It was about 2 to 3 servings. Along with a side salad, that was the last meal I had...at around 3 pm. I snacked on a wedge of cheeseball around 5, but no more meals for the day. I feel good tonight as I type this. My calories were about 1100 and I'm not hungry.

I won't get specific, especially after discussing food, but I have had an issue today. Four times I have had an upset belly today. I can only assume by the look of "things" that it is due to the frequent salads and fat that I am losing leaving my body. I am not worried, nor am I feeling sick, but it is odd. Usually when I don't eat many carbs I also don't go that often. I guess I should be happy knowing that the veggies I am eating is giving me the fiber I need or at least a good part of it. Yesterday I was concerned about something else. While slicing onions for lunch I had to stop and sit down. My chest had a weird ache, like a dull pain, right in the middle of it. I broke out into a cold sweat and felt a wave of nausea come over me. I couldn't tell if it was my heart. Couldn't tell if my pulse was high or heart rate was odd. All I know is if I were to have kept standing at the counter I am sure I would have passed out. After 10 minutes I was fine, but I didn't feel right for hours after. This further reiterated to myself how close to heart attack or death I am with being morbidly obese. More fuel to succeed in this weight loss adventure.

Well, Colts lost today and it's already pushing 10:30pm so I am off to bed. I have read 3 chapters in that new book Goodbye Fat Guy and would like to read another before I fall asleep. So far from what I've read, he lost his weight counting fat grams. I am just watching calories and abstaining from foods with flour or sugar in them. It's funny, when I first seen the pics in the book I was a little turned off. Not from his weight loss pics, but from pics of him in all these fancy and expensive vacation locations he has been to. Obviously, that is very bad of me to be jealous and envious thinking he was loaded and I was just a paycheck to paycheck guy. After that stupid moment passed, I had the realization that no matter how well to do this guy was it didn't help his weight loss. He had the same struggles that plague an obese person as me or anyone else. He never brags in his book, he just so happens to have lots of pics scuba diving, chilling at a beach side venue and Hawaii that I was envious of momentarily. I am still in his story of being fat, I think this coming chapter he gives his plan of action he took.

Even though he counts fat grams and focuses on that, I am happy with what I am doing. I don't follow a low carb Atkins diet plan. I don't eat butter or fatty foods. I don't eat anything fried. My protein sources are eggs, lean round steak, ground turkey, chicken breast (boneless/skinless) and turkey. I eat all types of vegetables. I do have some potatoes (like in the veggie soup I ate), but recognize they are very starchy so I haven't had them often. Everything is baked or grilled. Really the only thing that I eat that is "bad" would be my 160 calories worth of scrambled eggs I have for breakfast. They are high in cholesterol and fat, but at the same point that is the only food item I eat that has those amounts. I have to think that my body is getting more benefits from them than any bad effects.

I weighed today at home. I have said I would only weigh once a week and we (the BL contest friends) picked Tuesdays to be that day...but I couldn't weight. So here is the disclosure. I know scales weigh different place to place. I weigh at work on digital shipping type scales that have a huge weight capacity. My scales at home are digital Conair Weight Watchers brand scales that go up to 390lbs (or in that neighborhood). The time of day will effect your weight since you have more fluid (and any foods/drinks) in your body and organs later in the day. Also, at home I usually am not in jeans and tennis shoes. So, now that all that has been said, I weighed at 11am after eating my eggs and bacon and drinking a 16oz bottle of water. I wore jogging pants with a t shirt and was barefoot. The scale read 382. So even if you add a pound for some heavy shoes, that would be 24 pound loss since Monday. Even if you take of 2 pounds for difference in scales, that is still over 20 pounds lost this first week. I am so excited!

For the first time in a long time, my focus wasn't on what I was going to eat and wishing I was eating something else. I was eating to live and not living to eat. That is why this is working. That, and God giving me the ability to not desire food like a drug. Okay, I'm done for the night. I mean it this time. Goodnight!