Friday Eve!

Austin is spending night at friends house, Chloe getting clothes ready for tomorrow's GT camp play and I'm trying to suppress the stress. I went for a mile walk this evening and ate well all day. Unfortunately, I made two peanut butter sandwiches in a moment of stress eating. I really am having a rough night. First off, I feel like I am losing connection with my family due to them always wanting to be around the friends/boyfriends family. I am happy they all have these best buddies (Crystal included), but I almost feel that just having time to ourselves as a family is over and done with for them and that they will only be happy if our families are stuck up each others butts. Don't get me wrong, they are nice folks, but I guess I am just jealous that my family always wants them around or to be around them. Then I got Crystal's paycut killing our money situation. This is the worst we have been financially. Everyone has a slump and I know ours will end eventually, but it sucks making good money only to have the wife make just over minimum wage after making $2.50 more an hour just a few months ago. On top of that I got two great kids that should be able to go on a nice vacation like their friends and I wont be able to take them anywhere. I feel like I have completely failed as a dad and husband for not having my household in better financial shape. I guess it is inevitable that I need to get a second job, which also adds stress. Not only do I have the pressures of my day job and everything else, now I will be having to give up my nights to another job just to break even. I didn't intend this to be a vent session tonight, but its my blog so I will use it as needed. It is weight loss related though since stress leads to overeating and causes water retention. I'm spent...going to bed and try to feel better about life in general tomorrow. G'night.